time to love
never forget you, I remember you
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what is life?
Sunday, May 30, 2010 // back to top?
I'm living,
for the sake of living.
I'm doing everything,
just for the sake of doing them.
But I'm not happy... :(
Saturday, May 22, 2010 // back to top?
"有谁能为我捡起了伤痛 洒向了海中
能重新再来过"~ 北极圈 by F.I.R
我好累了。。。
Friday, May 21, 2010 // back to top?
It's just so hard, to be happy...
everday is just so miserable...
Saturday, May 15, 2010 // back to top?
Life is a torture to me... I really wish that I wasn't born in the first place.
I remembered I once said 'I'm so glad that I was born', but now I wonder why I would say that.
It's not that I don't wanna try, but everything just seems to be moving so fast.
And I'm so so tired of them.
I don't know what I really want in life, I seriously don't know.
And I don't know what I really want now.
I don't know whether I'm just trying to get excuses to skip everything,
or am I really that scared.
I tried figuring out, but somehow I just fail to.
Maybe it's a small matter to you, but it isn't to me.
It's like somebody are afraid of injections, but some are not.
Maybe, just maybe, I can try something out step but step, one by one,
instead of a sudden huge step.
yeah, somehow I forgot that it's independent learning, that's poly life.
I don't know whether all these are just excuses or not.
But that's how I feel now.
I'm afraid of trying, afraid of everything.
yeah, that's me, just a useless person in the world, I know.
But don't worry, I won't do silly things, cos I'm afraid of death too.
There isn't a week without crying since poly life started... I just hate it!
I'm giving up...
Wednesday, May 5, 2010 // back to top?
I'm halfway on giving up on everything. :/
Mon - starts at 9am ends at 5pm
Tues - starts at 9am ends at 4pm
Wed - starts at 9am ends at 5pm + foreign language lesson ends at 8pm
Thurs - starts at 9am ends at 5pm + extra english lesson ends at 6pm
Fri - starts at 1pm ends at 5pm + cca-guitar ends at 7.30pm
See! Look at those timings. It's like when I got home everyday, it's night already, and my brain is already dead. So so how the hell am I going to do homework and to revise. THIS IS CRAP! zzz. And the subjects are like so difficult...? Or maybe I don't really have an interest on them? IDK. I'm confused too. But I just feel that I had chosen the wrong course. >.< idk if this is an excuse or what, but whatever. & friday sucks! Seriously I hate fridays most! WTF! I'm definitely not going to school this friday!!! I hate poly life! DAMN IT!